Thursday, November 11, 2004

My brain is full

It's time to siphon off some of the thoughts filling up my head. I know it's been a few days since I've posted on my own blog. I've been busy making the blog rounds and commenting on others' posts.

It's been kind of odd and crazy this week. I've been having problems with my blood pressure. Even with my medication I'm having trouble getting it under control, and it's sky-high, way up in the scary range where I wonder if I'll wake up some mornings. I have become more diligent about making sure I take my meds and I'm getting it checked often. Sometimes I'm catching myself thinking I'll never make it to Jeopardy! if I have a stroke. I wouldn't even make it to PeggyHill's Boggle tournament because I would forget all the words in Patsy Cline lyrics.

The worst part of this is that you guys are the only ones I've mentioned this to. I'm afraid to mention it to my closest friends for fear of scaring them. So, there you go. You're now my close confidents, like it or not. "They" are right when "they" say middle age ain't for sissies.

But onward to other things...

As much as I love (and I do mean LOVE) the freelance writing I'm doing, reality is setting in with a heavy hand. It's time for me to start working full time again, for several reasons. More than the money, I need the daily contact and structure that goes with a j-o-b. There are several ways of putting those things into your life, but a regular paycheck is a good motivator. My hope is to find a job that combines my work skills with my personal mission statement -- to do what I can to make the world better when I leave it than it was when I got here. I've done some things towards that goal over the past two years doing volunteer work and church projects. Hopefully I'll find a more intentional way to do so.

I'm very tired tonight. So I'll say goodnight while I'm partially coherent and wish you all sweet dreams as well. May tomorrow be a wonderful day for you!


FrenziedFeline said...

Glad to see you blogging again, and you better be sure to take of yourself!

I think whatever job you find you'll have a positive impact. :)

Erudite Redneck said...

Here's hoping you find a way to take a full-time job and continue to freelance.

Trixie said...

Thanks, ThePress, that would be the ideal situation in my world (maybe yours too.)

CrystalDiggory said...

Does your doctor know your blood pressure is rising? Maybe he needs to adjust your medicine. If you're not already walking or doing some other kind of exercise, try that, too. Exercise is a very powerful "medicine", especially for high blood pressure. You probably already know all of this, so you'll just have to excuse me -- it's the nurse in me coming out! Plus, as one of your close confidents :) I want you to be well!

What kind of freelancing are you doing?

TECH said...

Trixie, listen to Crystal! Tell your doctor! And take care of you. I enjoy this blog and, through it, enjoy you.

I've had several friends attempt freelancing, but they eventually returned to the regular work enviroment. It's hard to do when you have a family or bills. I hope you can find exactly what you're looking for. And hey, see if there's two openings wherever it's at! :)